Selectively Juggling

Do I see myself as a leader? Yes and No!. Although this last month I have taken on higher duties in an Acting. Manager position. Am I enjoying it? In some ways yes, as I am able to challenge and extend myself. However I haven’t changed, my mindset hasn’t changed and I don’t see myself any better now than before commencing the role. What’s changed? Perhaps the way people view me, engage with me. In my eyes being a true leader and leadership is about being intuitive, implicit and explicit at the same time. It is about knowing yourself, your internal thoughts, bias and underpinnings. It is about having the ability to connect with people, read social and emotional nuances, and communicating in a way that employs compassion, integrity and self-awareness. I think I possess some of this, but I also grapple with the imposter syndrome, which can negate all the other aspects I see within myself. The question is “do I see myself as a leader?” Perhaps it should be “Do I feel there is a discrepancy between the way I see myself and the way I am viewed by others?”