Selectively Juggling

Romantic love? Plutonic love? The deep sense of self-love and belonging to the universe? I’ve got wonderful moments of experiencing romantic love, from my husband proposing to me in a snow covered castle in Germany, to lazing under the stars in the remote outback. Yet, when I think of this prompt and possible answers I’m left with the realisation that all of the moments I felt loved, unloved or something in between shared one thing in common. It all depended on my own emotional response, my own sense of self-worth and self-love. These feelings shaped my perception of events, interactions and relationships. So, really to understand and experience feelings of love, one must truly accept and love themselves as well.

Yesterday was hot and humid. I was in my backyard pool swimming, lost in thought and the joy of the moment, transfixed by sunlight bubbles dancing to the top. I looked up and saw an incredible Eagle fly overhead. It literally was only 20 metres above my head. The Eagle’s feathers captured the brilliance of the sunlight and I was was in awe. I felt incredible pure love and joy. I felt as though I had witnessed, shared an intimate moment with nature, the Eagle. A few hours later and I was back in the pool, this time floating on my back, feeling the magnesium rich mineral water soothe my body. I looked up and saw two magnificent eagles soaring on the thermals. They flew high up in the azure blue sky. I watched in wonder and awe. I extended my own arms out, closed my eyes and visualised being an Eagle, soaring high above the earth. Once again I felt incredible love and gratitude to nature. These feelings of love were real, why? Because I felt a deep connection between myself and nature. I felt as though I had an intimate moment witnessing the beauty. This is the same as other forms of love, it comes down to connection and communication, being suspended in the same moment. It’s not gifts and things that make me feel loved, nor words either. It is sharing, connecting in the moment, it’s being seen, and feeling valued for who I truly am. Just me… Nothing else, nothing more.