Selectively Juggling

I’m mindfully aware to remain mentally and emotionally grounded in the present. I definitely try to reflect upon moments of the past which can offer up invaluable and poignant life lessons. However I do not dwell on the past, as what has been, has been, and to dwell on should, could or would have done is counterintuitive and can lead to feelings of sadness and helplessness. Likewise, I plan for the future, yet do so mindfully, knowing that I need to remain grounded in the present moment and not swept up in the unending tumultuous sea of “what’s going to happen when, if etc”. I’ve actually spent considerable time working this life view out, as being a parent of a child with disabilities has forced me to unlearn all I thought I knew, and embrace a whole different mindset. My power and control is based squarely in the present, in the now, this very moment, in the way I choose to respond to life and not simply react. I can’t give away my energy and power by dwelling on the past or ruminating about future ‘what if’s’. I believe that finding mindfulness and presentism has saved me from the potential ravages of depression and anxiety. Especially the associated anxieties of needing to plan for my daughter, and children’s futures. Instead, I ground myself in the now, knowing that by doing so I am working on creating special moments that will someday be memories of my children’s past. Likewise, by living abundantly in the now, I’m creating a better future, as all my being is focused on living life well. Surely, this helps create a better experience!