Selectively Juggling

Have you ever felt like you’re running a race, but you’ve been so busy focusing on the finish line ahead that you’ve failed to see that you’re actually competing against yourself? In one lane, I see myself, the ‘expectations of self’ persona streaking far ahead, almost beyond my reach. I sneak a quick peek and discover that the ‘expectations of others’ seem to be able to sprint ahead, then stumble forward with a side stitch, once again regaining composure and running through the pain. To my left, I see my ‘living dreams and ambitions’ lagging far behind, not realising that it requires constant love and attention, prompting, “Come on, you’ve got this”.
I ask myself, “Perhaps I should stop, like all of me, should just stop, either slow down or catch up with each other.” perhaps if I take the time to recalibrate, ground and find balance, then I will be able to finish the race, or more importantly slow down enough to actually enjoy the journey, taking in the sights, sounds, smells and experiences. Really, I need to slow down and realise that the journey is in each individual step. Just as a mountain is climbed, one hard-fought step at a time. I need to respect and honour my journey, energy, and purpose.